i am always too afraid to turn into a desperate female - the kind that i try to avoid... so i want to explore the world a little more and try something new! i am new to the idea of modeling but havent been with any professional yet.
no one tells you about the insecurity that youre going to feel as a woman getting older! it creeps up on you when you least expect it like those awful weeds that invade your yard. the insecurity is more invasive - that little voice in my head is on overdrive... saying youre too fat, youre stupid, youre everything that is bad about this universe!
so i exercise more. i hide out a little. i avoid the sweets (well, sometimes!). i read a good book that helps me escape. i try to be good by reminding myself that it is just one day out of many and i am not as bad as what my ego says i am. more than anyone wanted to know? probably.