Sunday, October 11th, 2009:
My daughter is due any day now, and I've come to a decision: my modelling career is on hold INDEFINITELY.
Compared to what I'm about to do with my life (i.e. being a first-time mom) and the beautiful things that are ahead of me, my modelling just seems mediocre. This decision had many factors - I've run into a lot of photographers who are willing to pay other models, but would like for me to do everything for free... as if models don't communicate with each other. My worth is not measured by money; however, I know I'm at a point where I deserve some payment for my modelling. I was doing this as an incredibly fun hobby and I don't need people insulting me when I'm just trying to have fun and create art. Another factor is my move to Texas almost 2 years ago, which has all but stopped my modelling career. However, this is where I want to be, and in that area, I will not compromise.
I will be focusing on caring for my daughter, Marilyn Rose, and I will also be focusing on becoming a professional country singer/songwriter, which is really what I've always been after. I may eventually take on modelling assignments in the future, but as it stands right now, I'm closing shop.
I want to thank everyone who has accepted that BIG GIRLS CAN BE BEAUTIFUL AND CAN MODEL!! I remain proud of my portfolio, especially my nude shoots, because they are ART and always will be. I will be raising my daughter to be PROUD of her body, to only do what she's comfortable doing, and to not worry about what anyone thinks of her.
I will keep my Model Mayhem profile up, but I do not have my own computer and the library I go to to check emails blocks the entire site, so I won't be on here often.
If you want to get in contact with me, my Myspace is
www.myspace.com/justcantseemtofly; there is also a link to my music Myspace on that page as well.
16 PHOTO SHOOTS
Photographers:
Dianne Saavedra, (Victorville/Irvine, CA)
www.myspace.com/desphoto
Adell Young (Los Angeles, CA); OMP
Clifford Licko (Las Vegas, NV); CLICKO, #1499
Micheal H. (City of Industry, CA); Torrid Headquarters
Thomas R. Cordova (Los Angeles, CA); ArtsCPhoto, #28108
Jennifer Tuttle (Victorville, CA); Through Jenn's Eyes, #473145 (two times)
Pat Franco (San Bernardino, CA); Pat Franco, #474464 (three times)
Keith (Arizona; shoot in Nevada); ccc-studio, #188487
Butch (Las Vegas, Nevada); Nevada Fantasies, #2585
Jason Kruse (East Coast); AllStar Photography, #346163
Marco (CA); Film or Digital Photo, #386441
Toby (Austin, Texas), Figure Models
Mister Brad (Houston, Texas), #1039820
Models I've worked with so far:
Brian McAuliffe, Jr.
Voluptuous Yonna, #321228
Mirrisha, #412610
Samantha, MM page pending
