A bio of past or goals for the future??? I'll start with the present: Today I stay at a sober living house, am a recovering alcoholic and am giving my long lost dreams a go! It was a long time ago I had wanted to model or act, and I gave those seemingly foolish aspirations up due to self destructive behavior, many of which resulted in permanent physical and emotional scars. I am by no means perfect in either way. I've got cuts on my legs and arms, stretch marks on my belly and thighs and a face with a weak jawline, pointy nose and short eye lashes. I've got several tattoos.
What I want from this site is to get out exactly who I am and what it is to be something different. Not the norm, or even the above average "myspace, holla at ya girl" types. I don't have that big booty. I'm not a stick. I don't have perfect skin and my hair is always short. I'm not a suicide girl, though that's more of my thing. I want to be accepted as me, and pursue a life that I want, not that society says I should, or stifles me from doing.
When I was very little, I wanted to be an actress, then as a teenager, after a suicide attempt, I made the plans. Live a crazy life. Write about it, learn from it and be in movies. Well I took an acting class and dropped it from extreeeeme shyness. My life was pretty crazy for a while and I do write, which is my true passion, but all things aside, there's more to experience. Theres those goals I need to do, and there's much in the world for me to experience if I would just open my eyes, and let people see me too.
I begin a new over and over again, but I don't want to hide now. I want to change the face of modeling and writing. Put what I've seen out there. I represent the "hood", the trash, the "coulda beens", the drama mommas, the crazies and the unordinary beauties. This is a life, this is my life, and this is me. I'm not the only one, but I'm strong enough to put it out there!
You can find me on myspace and deviantart
http://www.myspace.com/foshizzzupthespout
http://borderlinejustfine.deviantart.com
