||Aug 06, 2013
||May 25, 2008
25 years old
Los Angeles, California, US
MM URL: http://www.modelmayhem.com/marlyashtin
It's always difficult to describe yourself to someone.
Perspectives play with us that way.
Everyone seeâs things differently.
This isant anything new.
There are qualities that I notice in myself that other people may recognize it only as something else.
It does help to know that my mistakes can be considered experiences and I can instead learn from them, rather than beating myself down because of them
Ive come to realize that I learn alot more if I just go with the flow instead of going against what has been known to be called my destiny.
I'm always interested in what other people want.
What do other people believe, what do other cultures and other people have to offer?
Not just to me, but just to offer in general.
Tell me, what do you live for? or do you just live?
What is your purpose? Do you even want a purpose?
What do you do? What dont you do?
What do you think of most?
Do you have a plan for yourself? Do you even want a plan?or do you prefer to live free?
I want to know those things from everone almost. Just because it's interesting to see the different ideas that people come up with and their views are so different that you may never know what you'll learn or find interesting in them.
I still have a lot to learn before I can consider myself prudent. This, however, doesnât mean I should feel inferior to anyone else. Wisdom doesnât automatically come with old age, nothing does- -except wrinkles. Itâs true, some wines improve with age, but only if the grapes were good to start with.
I skip to the tune of my own whistle and I refuse to let somone tell me what to believe or what to follow in general.
I find acceptance to be the key to moving on, which has helped me develop into the person who I am today.
Humor has helped me do that. If I can rest my head on a pillow everynight knowing that today I laughed, I smiled, I giggled, that means I was able to experience happiness in my day, even if it wasnât a burst of laughter.
Have you ever experienced something so horrible that you just wanted to laugh?
You donât really know why, but you just couldnât help it?
Well I have that feeling all the time. I am that feeling actually.
I feel like I hide behind my humor. Though maybe hiding isnât the right word.Laughter is what grounds me to concrete and helps me remember to ease my way through life, ease my way through work, ease my way through school, ease my way through anything because in reality, nothing is to serious to handle. Nothing is. Not even death.
I donât believe in death. Someone who has passed away can always live on. Believing that there is death, only allows them to die in your mind and in your heart. If you truly believe in something, in my opinion, thatâs a form of life that not even death himself can destroy. I really stand by what I mean, when I say that, truly, I do.
Things do happen for a reason. That's that! No matter how many people don't believe it, I will always keep that as a sticky note in my brain.
So far in my life, everything has proven me to be right on that little theory.
For some reason, the need to be accepted doesnât appeal much to me. Though Iâm always interested in hearing everyoneâs opinion on anything, I donât care much for someone liking towards me. That, also, doesnât mean that Iâm rude to whom ever and can careless about feelings/emotions.
Thereâs a fine line between mannerism and the need for someoneâs acceptance. One is out of respect and the other is a sign of co-dependency. Depending on others approval to feel, in some way, sufficient, or even, adequate is just stupid to me.
Even though I have my own personal thoughts on love, life, and I have my own opinions on the way things should be, I know that in the grand scheme of things, I'm not perfect. Nor do I want to be.
There's a beauty behind all my imperfections. Besides, what good is perfection when it takes away your character? Who will you be then? The only way to get to where I want to be is if I work hard for it. No one will bring me my golden dream on a silver platter. I have to go and get it my damn self!
I was always told to reach for the stars and to never give up on my hopes and dreams. Even if I hit some turbulence on the way, it doesnât mean Iâm a failure for not maintain a smooth ride, it's the staying down that results in failure. Call me old fashioned. Yet, day by day, little by little, step by step, there I go.
At this point, in my life, I do not wish to committ to Artistic Photography and/or Nudes of any type.
Acting, TV, Commercial & Feature Film/Stunt Work:
-Freedom Writers; *Stunts
-DrillBit Taylor; Brookes Friend
-Surfer Dude; Add's Pad's Girl
-You Dont Mess With The Zohan; Hair Fantasy Girl
-Rush Hr 3; *Stunts
-Metropolis Technology inc.
-Active Apperal Inc.
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