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I am a photographer based in Southend in Essex.
I work with Male models mainly creating fine art nudes, underwear photography and fashion photography.
My main motivation with my photographic art is to create work that expresses myself as an older man who has recently redefined himself and 'come out' as gay. Being nearly 40 yrs old when I did this I had, as you might imagine, faced extreme fears that were very real when I first perhaps "should" have come out, and walked a path of trying my best with all courage and endeavour to do "what's right" by society and please those important to me.
What "living for others" brought me was ill health, mentally and physically due to the torment of being in opposition to one's own inner being. Now that I have come out, in 1 year I have lost nearly all of my body fat, 6 stone in fact, and have grown in confidence dramatically.
I am working on reducing stigma and discrimination by simply raising the issues of homophobia, which can sometimes be cultural in their nature too. Many bigots for example, would spew venom at the fact that I prefer to photograph the leaner male form, and the youthfulness that this indulges, and to be truthful in firing such anger they are perhaps covering and denying their own unrequited shame at their own lustful desires for younger men with a smokescreen of pure hatred.
Older/younger relationships are a positive thing for the younger gay men who sometimes will need the stability of a more mature man and indeed are attracted to and older guy. As long as there is no manipulation and abuse of a more vulnerable person, whether older OR younger, that should not be a problem, and the assumption that there is likely to be just because there is a disparity in age would be a wild and aggressive assumption common to right wing philosophies around "normal" and nothing more, so is merely bigotry under a different brand.
I am a warrior for choice, and I stand opposed to that which discriminates unfairly on any level, and do not worry, I have my sanity intact and do not promote or condone any type of non consensual activity, which would include anything that does not at the very least strictly conform to minimum age requirements and that being the barest minimum requirement. I need to know that models are sane and of right mind and are doing the shoot because they WANT to. I need to to know that models who are going to take their clothes off at any age are doing so entirely because they feel liberated to do so and to that end, I DO NOT PAY models for this. This has far less to do with the money, though I won't pretend that the finances don't play into my hand here, but I also want my ethics to be known, and the way I have chosen to ensure that the model is entirely happy to pose however they do, is in they way they are not pressured by the need for money to have any requirement to say 'yes' to anything they do not wish to pose for.
The value of the existence of bigots in this world is of very limited importance in my opinion, but I recognise that bigotry merely resides withing a human being, and a person is not in fact "A Bigot"
Therefore it is "Bigotry" that is my target, and NOT the individuals themselves who behave that way.
So provocative images around homophobia are next on my list, promoting age gaps, and generally stretching the boundaries of this part of the world where I live to challenge the right wing militant pervading attitudes that kept me and will keep many young men in the closet around the world unnecessarily whilst they feel scared enough to lead beige and normal lives rather than enjoy their preference like all those lucky people who are fortunate enough to prefer to just be married to one woman for the rest of their lives.
Whether those who have denied themselves like it or not, everybody has the right to happiness in its fullness, and for that your sexual preferences need to be fulfilled, and nobody has the right to say what you 'should and shouldn't do' in that department.
What is vital is that individuals take care of their physical and psychological health, and to assume that the 'normal' agenda will do this without further consideration is foolish in the extreme. In fact ignoring one's own preference is probably far more dangerous than anything, regardless of people's right to have their own un-thought out and uneducated opinions. As a mental health worker and youth worker in my previous career, I have seen too many kids and older clients go to the railway tracks for this very reason, "the requirement that society and parents have for their kids to live in the same paranoid fears as they do, for the same reasons they did" - DENIAL OF SELF.
"It is good to live for others, but to deny oneself helps no one."
If you are behind the cause of ending the judgment and oppression of the self righteous and hatefully resentful, please do contact me.