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Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica


Sep 06 12 11:22 am  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
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overcoming and so are you
Sep 13 12 11:02 am  Link  Quote 
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Photos 4 The Memories
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Kewaskum, Wisconsin, US


Tim Little Photography wrote:
Latest Low T update. So I took the prescription to CVS and find out that my insurance company has to have a talk with my doctor before they will even consider paying for it. So it could be a week or more before I get the medicine. It bothers me that Insurance companies are determining what care I get. That's what doctors are for. Besides, if this works my $800 a month anti-depressant can be eliminated. That would be great.

Other than that I'm feeling better. The first of the week was very hard for me but I'm good now.

How y'all doing?

Was wondering what the update was on this?

Sep 19 12 04:40 pm  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
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Nashville, Tennessee, US


Photos 4 The Memories  wrote:

Was wondering what the update was on this?

Ditto

Sep 20 12 11:07 am  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
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Wilmington, Delaware, US


Photos 4 The Memories  wrote:

Was wondering what the update was on this?

Hey Y'all. Sorry to be away fro so long. I was back in the hospital with my leg.

The latest is that the insurance company finally came around and covers it somewhat. The co-pay is $90 for a one month supply. I'm finding that it is helping me feel "normal" again. My sex drive is very slowly increasing, my equipment seems to be waking up from a long nap. It is a very very slow process so don't expect results you can suddenly notice. But I feel like it is really helping me with my depression as well. My T level was crazy low. After 4 months of treatment we will check it again.

Feel free to message me if you have any questions!

Tim

Sep 20 12 02:06 pm  Link  Quote 
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Photos 4 The Memories
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Kewaskum, Wisconsin, US


Tim Little Photography wrote:

Hey Y'all. Sorry to be away fro so long. I was back in the hospital with my leg.

The latest is that the insurance company finally came around and covers it somewhat. The co-pay is $90 for a one month supply. I'm finding that it is helping me feel "normal" again. My sex drive is very slowly increasing, my equipment seems to be waking up from a long nap. It is a very very slow process so don't expect results you can suddenly notice. But I feel like it is really helping me with my depression as well. My T level was crazy low. After 4 months of treatment we will check it again.

Feel free to message me if you have any questions!

Tim

Glad to hear it is working out for you. I will keep that in mind. I just might have some questions for you.

Sep 21 12 10:55 pm  Link  Quote 
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Photos 4 The Memories
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Kewaskum, Wisconsin, US


A while back I was feeling down and someone suggest I listen to this song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVSOOBQB6I0
Sep 21 12 10:57 pm  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
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Photos 4 The Memories  wrote:

Glad to hear it is working out for you. I will keep that in mind. I just might have some questions for you.

Sure thing! Since the effects of Low-T can be very personal feel free to private message me!

Tim

Sep 23 12 08:54 pm  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
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Nashville, Tennessee, US


Tim Little Photography wrote:

Hey Y'all. Sorry to be away fro so long. I was back in the hospital with my leg.

The latest is that the insurance company finally came around and covers it somewhat. The co-pay is $90 for a one month supply. I'm finding that it is helping me feel "normal" again. My sex drive is very slowly increasing, my equipment seems to be waking up from a long nap. It is a very very slow process so don't expect results you can suddenly notice. But I feel like it is really helping me with my depression as well. My T level was crazy low. After 4 months of treatment we will check it again.

Feel free to message me if you have any questions!

Tim

Good stuff

Sep 25 12 08:05 am  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
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Wilmington, Delaware, US


I wanted to stop by and mention there is another thread that reports Suicide is now the number one cause of death by injury in the U.S. I bring it up to put this post back on the front page in case anyone is feeling a need to talk. There are good people here who care. I've attempted suicide and I can swear it is horrific and not the solution.

Talking never hurts.
Sep 29 12 11:41 am  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
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Nashville, Tennessee, US


that thread is a bit depressing. not really inspired by folks arguing over correctness of statistics. each one of those numbers is a very real person who had a very real life that was stopped by a very real problem that too many people think can be simply solved with a quick antidote phrase.
Sep 29 12 01:57 pm  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
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Wilmington, Delaware, US


Star Child wrote:
that thread is a bit depressing. not really inspired by folks arguing over correctness of statistics. each one of those numbers is a very real person who had a very real life that was stopped by a very real problem that too many people think can be simply solved with a quick antidote phrase.

You make a very good point.

Sep 29 12 02:14 pm  Link  Quote 
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Chris Rifkin
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Tampa, Florida, US


I refuse to participate in that thread as there is a supertanker full of ignorance in there.
Last thing I need to hear is to suck it up and just deal with it(or whatever other ignorant spewage I would get with my story)
Until it hits very close to home many just don't understand.
Sep 29 12 07:54 pm  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
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Wilmington, Delaware, US


Chris Rifkin wrote:
I refuse to participate in that thread as there is a supertanker full of ignorance in there.
Last thing I need to hear is to suck it up and just deal with it(or whatever other ignorant spewage I would get with my story)
Until it hits very close to home many just don't understand.

At the place where I go for group therapy they have posters up that say "Would you tell a cancer patient to "suck it up"? It makes me want to cry that so many people have so little knowledge.

Sep 29 12 08:21 pm  Link  Quote 
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S A L I N G E R
Posts: 602
Melbourne, Victoria, Australia


Thanks for bumping this thread Tim.

The other day I went in a similar thread and had to read someone say they cured themselves of depression by thinking happy thoughts and everyone could do the same (or some such drivel).

I couldn't even go into that new thread because I knew it would be full of shit and I'm feeling bad enough right now - worst I've felt for a long time in fact.

Hope everyone's ok.
Sep 29 12 11:24 pm  Link  Quote 
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Photos 4 The Memories
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Kewaskum, Wisconsin, US


Tim Little Photography wrote:
I received some news from my doctor's office yesterday that I want to share because it might be of value to the male visitors to our thread.

A blood test shows that I have very low testosterone levels. Testosterone is the hormone that basically deals with guy stuff. When the level is low it often causes:

Depression, sometimes severe and chronic
A reduced interest in sex
A reduced interest in most everything one used to enjoy
a glum sense of failure
Loss of muscle mass

And a host of other problems.

I consider this to be good news for a few reasons. First of all it is way easy to fix. One can choose from using a patch, a gel or monthly shots. From what I'm told the only reason to use the shots is to not have any of the hormone out where a female might come in contact with it. A child getting their hands on a patch could be bad.

I'm sharing this so any guys dealing with depression can be aware that a simple blood test can show if this a source of the problem.

In the past two weeks I've entered a regressive state, disassociated, cried a billion tears and dreamed of suicide. As you can imagine freedom from depression is vital for me to move forward with life. Reading the info about "Low T" was like reading my life story.

I learn more on Tuesday evening when I meet with the doctor and hopefully get started on replacement therapy. As always, I'll let you all know what is going on.

Have a great night everyone. I love you all very much!

Tim

Bumping this so I can find it again. Every time I look for this I have a hard time finding it.

Oct 02 12 05:25 am  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
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Nashville, Tennessee, US


Tim Little Photography wrote:

At the place where I go for group therapy they have posters up that say "Would you tell a cancer patient to "suck it up"? It makes me want to cry that so many people have so little knowledge.

Part of the reason that I keep participating in this thread is to spread knowledge on the subject

Oct 02 12 12:08 pm  Link  Quote 
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Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica


Oct 03 12 06:05 pm  Link  Quote 
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Damon Banner
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Oct 03 12 06:07 pm  Link 
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Oct 03 12 09:01 pm  Link 
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Chris Rifkin
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Circling the drain as the holliday season fast approaches,with the additinal shit I have been through and have go go through...

Spending virtually all my time alone is not the answer at this time
sad
Oct 06 12 03:28 pm  Link  Quote 
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Jules NYC
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New York, New York, US


Chris Rifkin wrote:
Circling the drain as the holliday season fast approaches,with the additinal shit I have been through and have go go through...

Spending virtually all my time alone is not the answer at this time
sad

Try to be with friends or people that care about your life and...
Focus on the here and now and forward Chris:)

and if you ever pass through CT and can park your truck somewhere, I'll always meet you somewhere and give you a smile.

You take care, ok?
smile
Julie

Oct 07 12 08:12 am  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
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Chris Rifkin wrote:
Circling the drain as the holliday season fast approaches,with the additinal shit I have been through and have go go through...

Spending virtually all my time alone is not the answer at this time
sad

I used to have a hard time around Christmas. Being alone bothered me. But a few years ago I decided to volunteer to work at the shelter. It has changed what Christmas is for me. If there is a day out of the year where we all reach out to the least of us that is the day. I can't stand up for more than a few minutes but I can chop veggies and open cans and a ton of other jobs. And I can know that my day was well spent.

If you find that you are going to be alone and don't want to be this might be an option for you.

Oct 07 12 10:42 am  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
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sometimes the only thing we have left is a small smoldering ember of hope that we could use a little help reigniting...
Oct 07 12 06:53 pm  Link  Quote 
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MesmerEyes Photography
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Tyler, Texas, US


Bump
Oct 08 12 06:49 am  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
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Nashville, Tennessee, US


MesmerEyes Photography wrote:
Bump

smile

Oct 10 12 10:38 am  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
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Wilmington, Delaware, US


Hey Star Child! I'll bump your bump!
Oct 10 12 10:47 am  Link  Quote 
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DougBPhoto
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Portland, Oregon, US


Tim Little Photography wrote:
Hey Star Child! I'll bump your bump!

I'll bump your bump of the bump.


Hoping everyone's bumps in the road are quickly billiard table smooth and future days are full of smooth sailing.

Oct 10 12 10:53 am  Link  Quote 
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Dannielle Levan
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New Westminster, British Columbia, Canada


/wave

*sneaks back in the thread*
Oct 10 12 04:26 pm  Link  Quote 
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Evie Wolfe
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Nottingham, England, United Kingdom


Hello Everyone smile

I don't think anyone in here knows me - I've not posted in this thread before, but I feel like I know most of you, I've been reading what you all write for years now smile

That came off a little creepy hmm I meant to say that I visit here when I'm low, or struggling, because posted here are some of the most supportive things, messages that come from understanding rather than just knowledge... And sometimes I visit when I am not low, to remind myself that there are other people out there who fight the same battles as me. It is easy to feel alone, when things are tough.

I keep quiet most of the time, I'm not very good at sharing, never have been - but I wanted to share something with you anyway, because even though you don't know me, you've all helped me through some awful times.

This month has been horrid, for me. I've had something that I poured my heart and soul into ruined - months of my life.... Gone, and by someone I didn't think would let me down, which is always worse. More bad news about my brother, more bad news about my health, and I'm now facing the reality of having to leave modelling, which I've loved so much - but I can't talk about the reason why publicly. Never been one of the 'post about it on facebook' types, but lordy I'd love to scream about this from the rooftops.

But, tonight I am smiling! My partner of three years has finally found a steady job, and having been there two weeks is already on track for a promotion. It's been years of absolutely no money, scraping to get by on the skin of our teeth while he broke his back doing anything he could to keep us going - I can now devote what money I have to paying for his masters degree, and I am so happy smile
He is the world to me smile
Oct 10 12 05:26 pm  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
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Thank you so much for posting Evie! I'm glad you have found some comfort here. I sure have. There are people here who are just glorious!

And thank you for sharing your good news with us! Every time one of us move forward I think we all move forward. We are in this life together and your success gives me much happiness!
Oct 10 12 05:51 pm  Link  Quote 
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Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica


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Evie Wolfe
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Oct 11 12 04:41 pm  Link 
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S A L I N G E R
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Melbourne, Victoria, Australia


Evie_Wolfe wrote:
... I've always found joy in the rain - especially when I'm in the warm and snuggled under a blanket, not getting wet! tongue

What made you guys happy today?

I love the rain too, although I had to shoot a house for sale in a downpour today so I agree with your philosophy of enjoying it inside - preferably in bed.

Today I enjoyed having my dog lie across my lap; he's a ball of fur and a really good dog.

I also liked that one of my fave young models posted a shot of her first swimsuit shoot we did last week on FB and publicly thanked me with a little smiley face emoticon.

It's the little things in life... smile

Oct 12 12 06:13 am  Link  Quote 
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Oct 12 12 09:19 am  Link 
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Star Child
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Nashville, Tennessee, US


Strangekitty wrote:
/wave

*sneaks back in the thread*

about time...

Oct 12 12 11:01 am  Link  Quote 
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Nicolette
Posts: 12,688
Midland, Texas, US


Chris Rifkin wrote:
Circling the drain as the holliday season fast approaches,with the additinal shit I have been through and have go go through...

Spending virtually all my time alone is not the answer at this time
sad

I have a rough time with the holidays as well.
PM me if you wanna talk. I'll send you my cell. I'm almost always awake and always answer.

That goes for anyone in here who needs to talk. Any time.

Oct 12 12 11:08 am  Link  Quote 
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Evie Wolfe
Posts: 1,201
Nottingham, England, United Kingdom


Aw, naps and cuddles with dogs! Awesome! I miss owning a dog, having a cat just isn't the same. I also miss sleep, but the fresher students who just moved in next door are a little over excited - they'll settle down when fresher's flu gets them tongue
Oct 12 12 11:09 am  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
Posts: 39,276
Nashville, Tennessee, US


Serious question: Why do you care? Why are you making an effort to reach out?
Oct 12 12 11:16 am  Link  Quote 
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Nicolette
Posts: 12,688
Midland, Texas, US


Star Child wrote:
Serious question: Why do you care? Why are you making an effort to reach out?

Not sure if this is directed at me or not, but I'll answer anyway.

I went through depression and suicide attempts completely alone. My family either honestly didn't notice or ignored it.
The holidays are super hard for me, personally. I was reminded of how much my family resented me. I've started coping with it better recently.


I know how hard it is to try to fight this when you feel completely alone. I don't want anyone to feel like they have no one they can turn to. If you have no one, you can always talk to me. ALWAYS.

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