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Alexandria Georgiades
Posts: 26,752
Lancaster, California, US


Strangekitty wrote:
Yes, on and off, although the loneliness is a constant. It's much to do with having no family to rely on. I have a wonderful husband, but sometimes you need a mom or dad to talk to, and I don't have that. (They're not dead, just deadbeats).
The depression was helped greatly by adopting a Paleo lifestyle. Now my depression is not constant, and only comes around when i'm stressed for long periods. If you wanna know more I have plenty of resources on it.

What is a Paleo lifestyle?  Any resources will be helpful. The only parent I have left is my Father and he lives in Greece.

Oct 25 12 08:25 am  Link  Quote 
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Alexandria Georgiades
Posts: 26,752
Lancaster, California, US


Hi Tim

I remember talking with you before.  It's just horrible to be so depressed and lonely on a daily basis and fight the pain.  I have to force myself to leave the house.  I think I just shut myself away from the world the last two years and the medicine for depression just takes the edge off.  I have to give myself shots twice a month for the arthritis and it's been two years since I severely fractured my leg.  I went through months of painful therapy just to walk with a cane.  I think the injury, the death of my mother and being diagnosed with the same disease that my mother died from created an earthquake in my life and the struggle to rebuild a new life as my old one is gone is like climbing up a hill covered with broken glass on my bare hands and knees...that's the best description I can attribute to what I'm going through.  I know there are people worse off..as I know you are from speaking with you before...but we all all suffer individually.

It's so good to hear from you.  I feel like I am suffering from PTSD in my own way, and just speaking with people here helps.

My friends all live 1 to 2 hours from me now....I had to sell my beautiful house out on the ranch because of the injury and the rheumatoid arthritis...I just can't live that far out anymore.

I need to start doing my photography again and I have a shoot theme planned.  Physically it will be painful, but it's what I love and I want to get mentally back into publishing my photo books that have been done for two years, but they aren't me anymore.  I have changed so much psychologically.

It is such an effort just to go to the store, but I do it.

40 feet is a lot farther than where you were two years ago!
Thanks Tim...I am not going to let it get me down or win either.

Stay in touch.
Alexandria


Tim Little Photography wrote:
I do Alexandria. My Post Traumatic Stress Disorder reveals itself in several ways but the worst is the pervasive soul crushing depression. Since going on disability because of it I'm either home a lot because I cannot afford to do anything, or I am at a doctor for the PTSD or my leg.

I deal with it in a number of ways. This forum. Staying in touch with friends. I went on a mission to reconnect with old friends and it has been as good for them as for me.

And I seek treatment. My depression is like a lake. Sometimes smooth and easy. Sometimes there are ripples and sometimes waves of depression. But it is nothing. Not anything like it was before I got started treatment. I have to chronic illnesses that I will have all my life and damn if I am going to let them get me.

When I can walk again, I can do about 40 feet now, I plan on getting out more to do charity work. I think it will help me feel better about myself. I want my life to have had some meaning.

Oct 25 12 08:26 am  Link  Quote 
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Chris Rifkin
Posts: 24,617
Tampa, Florida, US


Taboo Nudes wrote:
Does anyone here really suffer from deep depression and loneliness?  How do you cope with it?

Bigtime depression triggered by lonliness..
I have catastrpohic self esteem social ineptness brought on by horrific bullying in shcool that was
not dealt with because of extreme religious reasons by my mom(it was all part of Gods plan),and not getting any help(therapy and such are the work of satan because its interfering with God's plan)
Basicly (except for the 2 years a miracle happened when I met to this day was probably the girl I should be married to,was a Ujena Swimwear model,passed away in a car crash)spend most of my life alone,making bad decisions brought on by my social and self esteem issues.
Hollidays are especially harsh when its all about love and being with loved ones and I get PTSD symptoms by even seeing status updates on FB about people in love and doing things together..

Therapy has helped me find why I have these issues(the bullying and such that I surpressed)and is in the process of helping me make a last ditch effort to salvage my life,
but to be honest,there is nothing I can do when "the cancer"(my lonliness)hits me other than just get through the day and get to sleep.
Meds won't be any help as meds won't help me build self esteem or develop social skills
And it seems that whatever family is left has written me off and in the past few years been trying to distance themselves from me...

Oct 25 12 09:16 am  Link  Quote 
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Jules NYC
Posts: 16,200
New York, New York, US


Chris Rifkin wrote:
Bigtime depression triggered by lonliness..
I have catastrpohic self esteem social ineptness brought on by horrific bullying in shcool that was
not dealt with because of extreme religious reasons by my mom(it was all part of Gods plan),and not getting any help(therapy and such are the work of satan because its interfering with God's plan)
Basicly (except for the 2 years a miracle happened when I met to this day was probably the girl I should be married to,was a Ujena Swimwear model,passed away in a car crash)spend most of my life alone,making bad decisions brought on by my social and self esteem issues.
Hollidays are especially harsh when its all about love and being with loved ones and I get PTSD symptoms by even seeing status updates on FB about people in love and doing things together..

Therapy has helped me find why I have these issues(the bullying and such that I surpressed)and is in the process of helping me make a last ditch effort to salvage my life,
but to be honest,there is nothing I can do when "the cancer"(my lonliness)hits me other than just get through the day and get to sleep.
Meds won't be any help as meds won't help me build self esteem or develop social skills
And it seems that whatever family is left has written me off and in the past few years been trying to distance themselves from me...

Chris, dear Chris...

You may or may not absorb this, and I'm trying with my utmost sensitivity to explain this to you in a variety of ways...

I so understand the bullying.  Damn, how unfair!... yet it happened and now you have to mend those hurtful pieces of memories.  That can be done:)

As for your girlfriend that passed:

You really don't know if you would have been married.  Maybe you would have, maybe you wouldn't but the relationship was wonderful and savor it for what it is.

There was a prominent Dr. a couple towns over from where I live right now.  His story was horrific.  He was happily married with lovely girls as children.  A home invasion occurred.  I'd have to revisit the story again, but there was rape, and being burned to death.  Imagine WATCHING your family, a family you love and adore being sodomized and BURNED to death?

Good God.

The Dr. is so dignified and well-spoken, my heart completely went out to this man.
He was successful in his legal battle and now, time marches on.

He now just got married to a lovely woman who was very understanding of his past and the horror.  I doubt he makes his new wife less important or loved than his deceased wife, but it takes great understanding and LOVE to conquer all.

Understand that you are loved.  People here care about you.  I do!  I care about your happiness.  I've grown to 'know' certain people in Model Mayhem and care about their lives.  You have all of the power within you to be loved and love again.  You are just like the rest of us, we can't predict the future but we can hope for the best. 

HOPE is what gets us through the day.
HOPE is what makes us WANT to get through another.

I want you to think about this.
No one is asking you to forget anyone, but until you are ready to truly have genuine love meet and greet you, you will receive it.  I'm sure your girlfriend would be more than happy for you to be happy too.

The horror:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6SzZRX0NVeg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7uy68_SjPg

The happiness:

http://img2-2.timeinc.net/people/i/2012/news/120820/william-petit-600.jpg

http://www.people.com/people/article/0, … 80,00.html

Oct 25 12 10:30 am  Link  Quote 
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David Desoer
Posts: 148
Cayuga, Ontario, Canada


Oct 25 12 11:44 am  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11,592
Wilmington, Delaware, US


David Desoer wrote:

It may be good but I would seriously question it being "safe" and I would urge people to exercise some caution in posting these details of their issue out in the open.  Sooner or later someone, having been shown the knife in your back, will decide to give it a twist.

At the very least, be careful of the rebound.  Online communities like this can give one a sense of belonging, friendship etc.  It is largely an illusion and eventually that makes itself evident. 

Cheers,
Dave

David, your advice is well received. There is risk in putting our lives, all of it, out in front of everyone. I have to do it. I spent most of my life stuffing my pain and fear and anger down and down and down and it lead me to attempt suicide before getting help. Thank God I suck at suicide. And thank God I call 911 and got help and now know what I have to do. For me, JUST for me, dealing with PTSD is living an open book life. I have found great good from it. I can accept myself because people I love can. Some of those people are here and most are people I've known for ages.

David, for some of us an online rant is the only way we can express what is eating us up. It is a step. A first step. When I said this is a safe place I should have chosen my words more carefully. Sadly, you are right. There are those who would seek to harm someone if it help them. I don't worry about stuff like that because I cannot fall any more down. I can't say the same for others.

What I should have said is that people can find a place here to voice their feelings without fear of ridicule. Thank you for pointing out my error. God bless you my friend.

Oct 25 12 12:14 pm  Link  Quote 
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Dannielle Levan
Posts: 12,857
New Westminster, British Columbia, Canada


Taboo Nudes wrote:

What is a Paleo lifestyle?  Any resources will be helpful. The only parent I have left is my Father and he lives in Greece.

PM me your email and i'll send you a couple books about it.
http://www.marksdailyapple.com is a good place to start though!

Oct 25 12 12:17 pm  Link  Quote 
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David Desoer
Posts: 148
Cayuga, Ontario, Canada


Oct 25 12 12:43 pm  Link  Quote 
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hgldhlhgfh
Posts: 576
Dumont d'Urville - permanent station of France, Sector claimed by France, Antarctica


Oct 25 12 06:54 pm  Link  Quote 
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Alexandria Georgiades
Posts: 26,752
Lancaster, California, US


Chris Rifkin wrote:

Bigtime depression triggered by lonliness..
I have catastrpohic self esteem social ineptness brought on by horrific bullying in shcool that was
not dealt with because of extreme religious reasons by my mom(it was all part of Gods plan),and not getting any help(therapy and such are the work of satan because its interfering with God's plan)
Basicly (except for the 2 years a miracle happened when I met to this day was probably the girl I should be married to,was a Ujena Swimwear model,passed away in a car crash)spend most of my life alone,making bad decisions brought on by my social and self esteem issues.
Hollidays are especially harsh when its all about love and being with loved ones and I get PTSD symptoms by even seeing status updates on FB about people in love and doing things together..

Therapy has helped me find why I have these issues(the bullying and such that I surpressed)and is in the process of helping me make a last ditch effort to salvage my life,
but to be honest,there is nothing I can do when "the cancer"(my lonliness)hits me other than just get through the day and get to sleep.
Meds won't be any help as meds won't help me build self esteem or develop social skills
And it seems that whatever family is left has written me off and in the past few years been trying to distance themselves from me...

Yes, the meds don't really help...I just have to struggle through the day...and it is both emotional and physically painful. I find with the rheumatoid Arthritis that fear sets in when I am alone.

I just wish I could get my mind set back into working on my books....most of them are finished. I just have one book that I need to divide into smaller books..especially with the economy, but with all that happened in the space of a year I feel that I have lost myself...who I used to be and I can never go back to that person.

Oct 27 12 09:50 am  Link  Quote 
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Alexandria Georgiades
Posts: 26,752
Lancaster, California, US


That is heart breaking...  My Nanny used to tell me there is always someone worse off and to try and remember that when I go through my own traumas.

Jules NYC wrote:

Chris, dear Chris...

You may or may not absorb this, and I'm trying with my utmost sensitivity to explain this to you in a variety of ways...

I so understand the bullying.  Damn, how unfair!... yet it happened and now you have to mend those hurtful pieces of memories.  That can be done:)

As for your girlfriend that passed:

You really don't know if you would have been married.  Maybe you would have, maybe you wouldn't but the relationship was wonderful and savor it for what it is.

There was a prominent Dr. a couple towns over from where I live right now.  His story was horrific.  He was happily married with lovely girls as children.  A home invasion occurred.  I'd have to revisit the story again, but there was rape, and being burned to death.  Imagine WATCHING your family, a family you love and adore being sodomized and BURNED to death?

Good God.

The Dr. is so dignified and well-spoken, my heart completely went out to this man.
He was successful in his legal battle and now, time marches on.

He now just got married to a lovely woman who was very understanding of his past and the horror.  I doubt he makes his new wife less important or loved than his deceased wife, but it takes great understanding and LOVE to conquer all.

Understand that you are loved.  People here care about you.  I do!  I care about your happiness.  I've grown to 'know' certain people in Model Mayhem and care about their lives.  You have all of the power within you to be loved and love again.  You are just like the rest of us, we can't predict the future but we can hope for the best. 

HOPE is what gets us through the day.
HOPE is what makes us WANT to get through another.

I want you to think about this.
No one is asking you to forget anyone, but until you are ready to truly have genuine love meet and greet you, you will receive it.  I'm sure your girlfriend would be more than happy for you to be happy too.

The horror:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6SzZRX0NVeg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7uy68_SjPg

The happiness:

http://img2-2.timeinc.net/people/i/2012/news/120820/william-petit-600.jpg

http://www.people.com/people/article/0, … 80,00.html

Oct 27 12 09:54 am  Link  Quote 
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Alexandria Georgiades
Posts: 26,752
Lancaster, California, US


Tim Little Photography wrote:

David, your advice is well received. There is risk in putting our lives, all of it, out in front of everyone. I have to do it. I spent most of my life stuffing my pain and fear and anger down and down and down and it lead me to attempt suicide before getting help. Thank God I suck at suicide. And thank God I call 911 and got help and now know what I have to do. For me, JUST for me, dealing with PTSD is living an open book life. I have found great good from it. I can accept myself because people I love can. Some of those people are here and most are people I've known for ages.

David, for some of us an online rant is the only way we can express what is eating us up. It is a step. A first step. When I said this is a safe place I should have chosen my words more carefully. Sadly, you are right. There are those who would seek to harm someone if it help them. I don't worry about stuff like that because I cannot fall any more down. I can't say the same for others.

What I should have said is that people can find a place here to voice their feelings without fear of ridicule. Thank you for pointing out my error. God bless you my friend.

Just talking..even to total strangers lets us know we are not alone and so many others suffer from deep depression and PTSD.

Oct 27 12 09:57 am  Link  Quote 
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Alexandria Georgiades
Posts: 26,752
Lancaster, California, US


does anyone else in this forum suffer from Rheumatoid Arthritis and find that a deep depression and feeling of loneliness comes with it?  If so, how do you cope with it? I'm on anti-depressants as well as clonazapam and I'm still depressed and lonely every freaking day....I can't take this anymore..it's not anyway way to live.
Oct 28 12 06:23 pm  Link  Quote 
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Winnie L
Posts: 5,867
Singapore, Singapore, Singapore


Has it been a year since I was here? Feels like it. Hello to the people who haven't seen me before, hugs and kisses to those I have missed.

How is everyone doing?

I'm leading a new life. Many relapses, but forcing myself to adapt to change. One of those periods where I find myself in dark places again.
Nov 05 12 12:01 am  Link  Quote 
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A S Photography
Posts: 1,217
Newark, Delaware, US


Winnie L wrote:
Has it been a year since I was here? Feels like it. Hello to the people who haven't seen me before, hugs and kisses to those I have missed.

How is everyone doing?

I'm leading a new life. Many relapses, but forcing myself to adapt to change. One of those periods where I find myself in dark places again.

Hi Winnie,

Glad to hear of your new life; I hope it continues to get better.

Hugs.

Nov 05 12 02:16 am  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
Posts: 39,277
Nashville, Tennessee, US


I have discovered that Saturdays have become a black hole day for me
Nov 05 12 11:25 am  Link  Quote 
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Alexandria Georgiades
Posts: 26,752
Lancaster, California, US


Winnie L wrote:
Has it been a year since I was here? Feels like it. Hello to the people who haven't seen me before, hugs and kisses to those I have missed.

How is everyone doing?

I'm leading a new life. Many relapses, but forcing myself to adapt to change. One of those periods where I find myself in dark places again.

Yes, it's the adaptation to the rapid changes in my life that happened all in the space of a year that brings on the deep depression for me. I'm fighting it as much as I can.

Nov 05 12 06:00 pm  Link  Quote 
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Phane
Posts: 2,048
Rockville, Maryland, US


I have written in here before and its helps to vent Tonight I had a really bad night with my family lack of support in this trying time of my pregnancy

It made me  realize that I cant rely on them or be around them period because I have had numerous thoughts of suicide in the past few days.


I feel like The way I will die will be by my own hand someday.

I belive its best to be alone
Nov 05 12 06:46 pm  Link  Quote 
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Chris Rifkin
Posts: 24,617
Tampa, Florida, US


Phane wrote:
I have written in here before and its helps to vent Tonight I had a really bad night with my family lack of support in this trying time of my pregnancy

It made me  realize that I cant rely on them or be around them period because I have had numerous thoughts of suicide in the past few days.


I feel like The way I will die will be by my own hand someday.

I belive its best to be alone

I know all too well with my family basicly writing me off and either bitching about how I'm a failure or just trying to hope somehow someone comes into my life to "take care of me so I'm not their potential problem anymore"(to the point of lately forcably trying to jam someone into my life I find 100% undesireable in every way in various ways then bitching that I need to learn my role in life and just settle like everyone else does...bla bla bla)
It really sucks because it looks like unless I succumb to their wishes and give up I will very likely not be welcome to be around them this holliday season,and possibly be disowned..
I would assume(I hope)your baby's father is in your life,I can't speculate who's family is being unsupportave,but at least you have him in your life,and I would assume one side's family as well..
Hopefully friends.
And you have people here

Nov 05 12 07:35 pm  Link  Quote 
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Phane
Posts: 2,048
Rockville, Maryland, US


Chris Rifkin wrote:

I know all too well with my family basicly writing me off and either bitching about how I'm a failure or just trying to hope somehow someone comes into my life to "take care of me so I'm not their potential problem anymore"(to the point of lately forcably trying to jam someone into my life I find 100% undesireable in every way in various ways then bitching that I need to learn my role in life and just settle like everyone else does...bla bla bla)
It really sucks because it looks like unless I succumb to their wishes and give up I will very likely not be welcome to be around them this holliday season,and possibly be disowned..
I would assume(I hope)your baby's father is in your life,I can't speculate who's family is being unsupportave,but at least you have him in your life,and I would assume one side's family as well..
Hopefully friends.
And you have people here

The fathers not in my life anymore because of hes bad choices
I have friends who have been amazing its just tough right now
I really just hate the idea of being close to anymore
I am working on feeling worth it wink

Nov 05 12 07:42 pm  Link  Quote 
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S A L I N G E R
Posts: 604
Melbourne, Victoria, Australia


There's a silence in my mind at present. A sense of quietude, a stillness, a kind of a feeling of calm before the storm. Not Good. Not good at all.
Nov 10 12 10:54 pm  Link  Quote 
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Tegan Lynn
Posts: 993
Kitchener, Ontario, Canada


Taboo Nudes wrote:
does anyone else in this forum suffer from Rheumatoid Arthritis and find that a deep depression and feeling of loneliness comes with it?  If so, how do you cope with it? I'm on anti-depressants as well as clonazapam and I'm still depressed and lonely every freaking day....I can't take this anymore..it's not anyway way to live.

I don't have RA, but I have an as of yet undiagnosed muscle disease that cause severe pain in a similar fashion. It's been really bad. I just force myself to continue on in whatever small fashion I can. Try your hardest to incorporate the things you love into your life. Even though you may feel guilty for spending what little energy and strength you have that day on yourself instead of getting 'more productive things' done, do it anyway.

Nov 11 12 08:48 am  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11,592
Wilmington, Delaware, US


S A L I N G E R wrote:
There's a silence in my mind at present. A sense of quietude, a stillness, a kind of a feeling of calm before the storm. Not Good. Not good at all.

Bret, this sometimes happens to me. I never really know where my PTSD is going to take me but there are periods where I can feel a heavy dose of depression coming fast. I have learned to accept that it is going to happen and prepare as best I can.

Just remember that there are others who care about what's going on with you Bret. If it helps to talk then please feel free to PM me.

Nov 11 12 09:22 am  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
Posts: 39,277
Nashville, Tennessee, US


Star Child wrote:
I have discovered that Saturdays have become a black hole day for me

and I fought through the one this past weekend. I think I might have even made a positive day out of it.

Nov 12 12 09:23 am  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11,592
Wilmington, Delaware, US


I'm leaving soon to go to an appointment at the Wound Care Center. Hopefully this will keep me out of the hospital. I dislike going there because they always have to do things that are kinda painful. That can cause my PTSD to run amuck. Please wish me luck.
Nov 12 12 09:28 am  Link  Quote 
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Jules NYC
Posts: 16,200
New York, New York, US


Tim Little Photography wrote:
I'm leaving soon to go to an appointment at the Wound Care Center. Hopefully this will keep me out of the hospital. I dislike going there because they always have to do things that are kinda painful. That can cause my PTSD to run amuck. Please wish me luck.

Good luck Tim.

Nov 12 12 09:32 am  Link  Quote 
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A S Photography
Posts: 1,217
Newark, Delaware, US


Tim Little Photography wrote:
I'm leaving soon to go to an appointment at the Wound Care Center. Hopefully this will keep me out of the hospital. I dislike going there because they always have to do things that are kinda painful. That can cause my PTSD to run amuck. Please wish me luck.

I'm probably a bit late, but good luck.

Nov 12 12 01:26 pm  Link  Quote 
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modeled
Posts: 9,334
San Diego, California, US


I know of a person on a message board who is suicidal and lives in Italy.  If anyone can provide #'s or info he can use that would be great.

Apparently his doctor is not helping, and the guy made an attempt but ended up in the hospital.  Now he's out and looking for answers.

Thank you.
Nov 19 12 06:41 am  Link  Quote 
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DivaEroticus
Posts: 14,679
Fayetteville, Arkansas, US


modeled wrote:
I know of a person on a message board who is suicidal and lives in Italy.  If anyone can provide #'s or info he can use that would be great.

Apparently his doctor is not helping, and the guy made an attempt but ended up in the hospital.  Now he's out and looking for answers.

Thank you.

There's this:  http://www.befrienders.org/helplines/he … p?c2=Italy

and

http://www.iasp.info/resources/detail/i … ia-107.htm

I hope he finds the help he needs.

Nov 19 12 07:31 am  Link  Quote 
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A S Photography
Posts: 1,217
Newark, Delaware, US


modeled wrote:
I know of a person on a message board who is suicidal and lives in Italy.  If anyone can provide #'s or info he can use that would be great.

Apparently his doctor is not helping, and the guy made an attempt but ended up in the hospital.  Now he's out and looking for answers.

Thank you.

Take a look at the first post in this thread.

Nov 19 12 11:48 am  Link  Quote 
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A S Photography
Posts: 1,217
Newark, Delaware, US


nothing wrote:
[to be filled in later]

Suicide
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
http://www.suicide.org/
http://www.alternativedepressiontherapy … ssion.html
Night Falls Fast (book): http://www.nytimes.com/books/first/j/jamison-night.html

This is the West Australian branch,
http://www.thesamaritans.org.au/
US Branch
http://www.thesamaritans.org


hotlines
US- http://suicidehotlines.com/ or http://suicidehotlines.net/
World- http://suicidehotlines.com/international.html

survivor support groups, suicide support groups and family support groups
http://www.survivorsofsuicide.com/
http://www.afsp.org/index.cfm?fuseactio … 3261B4378D
http://www.suicidology.org/
http://www.parentsofsuicide.com/
http://halfofus.com
http://teenforce.net

Domestic Violence
National Domestic Violence Hotline

1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
1-800-787-3224 (TTY)

Rape, Abuse, and Incest National Network:
rainn.org; 1.800.656.HOPE

Violence

Stop Abuse For Everyone (SAFE); covering even those normally not mentioned when we think of "domestic violence" (e.g. men, lesbian, gays, etc.):
http://www.safe4all.org/

Their resource list, specifically:
http://www.safe4all.org/resource-list/

National Sexual Violence Resource Center:
http://www.nsvrc.org/

NYC Alliance Against Sexual Assault:
http://www.nycagainstrape.org/

Nov 19 12 11:51 am  Link  Quote 
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David Desoer
Posts: 148
Cayuga, Ontario, Canada


Nov 19 12 02:54 pm  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
Posts: 39,277
Nashville, Tennessee, US


David Desoer wrote:

I feel this way sometimes, too

Nov 26 12 01:14 pm  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11,592
Wilmington, Delaware, US


I know Thanksgiving was a few days ago and I'm a little late. But I want to address the wonderful people here in the S&V thread.

I am so thankful for every one of you. This has been a hard year for me, and I know for some of you as well. But all of you, without fail, have held my hand and had my back and I am so filled with gratitude.

I adore you, appreciate you, admire and respect you all so very much. I feel like I get so much from you guys and give so little. I promise to work on that.

Bless you all

Tim
Nov 27 12 01:08 pm  Link  Quote 
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Star Child
Posts: 39,277
Nashville, Tennessee, US


Tim Little Photography wrote:
I know Thanksgiving was a few days ago and I'm a little late. But I want to address the wonderful people here in the S&V thread.

I am so thankful for every one of you. This has been a hard year for me, and I know for some of you as well. But all of you, without fail, have held my hand and had my back and I am so filled with gratitude.

I adore you, appreciate you, admire and respect you all so very much. I feel like I get so much from you guys and give so little. I promise to work on that.

Bless you all

Tim

smile blessings to you, man

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I am really struggling not to slice myself up tonight .

and im not suicidal 'tonight' lol ..and yes i know it's selfish but i
literally have no-one to talk to anymore not really

or anyone who would begin to understand
or won't run a mile .
Dec 01 12 01:04 pm  Link  Quote 
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LEA 2 wrote:
I am really struggling not to slice myself up tonight .

and im not suicidal 'tonight' lol ..and yes i know it's selfish but i
literally have no-one to talk to anymore not really

or anyone who would begin to understand
or won't run a mile .

Oh Lea, I am so sorry you are struggling but I'm so glad you are here and sharing your situation with us. There is nothing selfish in what you are doing and you do have  people to talk with.

I don't know if you and I have ever had the opportunity to have a nice little chat?  I'm Tim and I have Post Traumatic Stress so I get real depressed a lot. It always helps me to talk. So Lea, is there something that triggered your pain today? Wanna talk about it? We can do it here. Or you can private message if you want. If you want my phone # just message me and we can really chat.

You are not alone today Lea.

Dec 01 12 02:22 pm  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography wrote:

Oh Lea, I am so sorry you are struggling but I'm so glad you are here and sharing your situation with us. There is nothing selfish in what you are doing and you do have  people to talk with.

I don't know if you and I have ever had the opportunity to have a nice little chat?  I'm Tim and I have Post Traumatic Stress so I get real depressed a lot. It always helps me to talk. So Lea, is there something that triggered your pain today? Wanna talk about it? We can do it here. Or you can private message if you want. If you want my phone # just message me and we can really chat.

You are not alone today Lea.

DON't feel *bad* for me im a bad person,  ,DRINK alot alot
slept with someone for a place to sleep - and now im really
fucking scared im pregnant ?

i just needed a place to vent besides too late now .
http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_medjb … 1_1280.jpg

incase you think im bullshitting . not deep but i didn't have a razor
only broken glass.

buttttt even horrible people need someone to talk occasionally no ?

Dec 01 12 02:51 pm  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography
Posts: 11,592
Wilmington, Delaware, US


LEA 2 wrote:

DON't feel *bad* for me im a bad person,  ,DRINK alot alot
slept with someone for a place to sleep - and now im really
fucking scared im pregnant ?

i just needed a place to vent besides too late now .
http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_medjb … 1_1280.jpg

incase you think im bullshitting . not deep but i didn't have a razor
only broken glass.

buttttt even horrible people need someone to talk occasionally no ?

I don't think you're a bad person but Lea it doesn't matter what I think anyway. It sounds like you have a bunch of bad shit you are dealing with. Have you been tested our picked up an EPT kinda test yet?

Dec 01 12 02:58 pm  Link  Quote 
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Tim Little Photography wrote:

I don't think you're a bad person but Lea it doesn't matter what I think anyway. It sounds like you have a bunch of bad shit you are dealing with. Have you been tested our picked up an EPT kinda test yet?

no no idea what that is anyway ?

Dec 01 12 03:04 pm  Link  Quote 
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