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Modeling and Depression
You are all beautiful wonderful people and I appreciate the way people have opened up on this thread to talk about something I have struggled with my whole life. It's nice to know I am not alone. Mar 28 13 02:46 pm Link EMILY C wrote: This is how I feel. I haven't been diagnosis with depression or anxiety, but it doesn't take a rocket scientist to know it's there. It comes out even more when I get turned down for a job or overlooked by a "client" because I "don't have the right look". I know I spent hours crying in the arms of my boyfriend because once again I wasn't picked for a job because a prettier girl got it. Did I mention I have self-esteem issues as well? Mar 28 13 09:09 pm Link It's nice to see people sharing in here again. Thank you very much for that. This is a safe place to share your thoughts and feelings. This website has offered lots of different things for people. Personally, I can relate to all sorts of posts in here. Right now I have now been shooting much due to several things, but I can tell you that I do miss seeing new pictures in my portfolio. The amount of time and energy and effort you put into modeling is what you will get back, I feel. I have met some extremely wonderful people on this website and some "meh" people. I enjoyed being able to step outside of my every day self, put on a different persona if needed, some makeup, some heels, or whatever the shoot called for, and make my body do things I didnt normally do on an average day. I enjoyed seeing the results for the most part because I like to study myself a bit. Im curious about who I am. The modeling photos show me another aspect of who I am. It's interesting when you get images that dont necessarily "look" like you or ones that capture certain angles you havent seen before. Its not always easy to view yourself in a positive way, but the more you see yourself, the easier it becomes. You will always have yourself, so in my opinion, it is best to try and make peace with yourself on some level if possible. It's not easy and may take a long time. Mar 28 13 09:50 pm Link I wonder if a persons mental health be it depression is revealed in some way in their portfolio images. Be it in the eyes, blank expressions, static poses, distant look. Mar 29 13 05:50 am Link -Nicole- wrote: I definitely agree with you, Autumn. I haven't shot in months because I just was not satisfied with anything I saw, then all of the fun I had on set was totally worthless. Apr 02 13 05:04 am Link On the modeling path, I also travel places, meet people and establish good company. It does help with the depressions of life. Apr 02 13 05:22 am Link c_h_r_i_s wrote: That could be an interesting study! Apr 02 13 10:46 am Link Lisa Mae Russell wrote: This is a very interesting thought... Apr 07 13 08:30 pm Link Hi all you beautiful ladies and gentlemen. I hope you have been well  I am resurfacing after being off here for awhile. I just had my first shoot in four months, I feel it went well. I promise I will be around more now.Apr 30 13 06:08 am Link OP: My only real comment is don't allow modeling to become a crutch. Ideally, you want to live a life where just waking up makes you happy and confident. That said, as someone with clinical depression and other mood disorders, I've found modeling can be a blessing and a curse. This upcoming trip I have? I'm pumped, excited, ready to get on the road and absolutely confident that I'm going to kick ass. A week ago? I hated men, especially men who might have cameras. I was fat, ugly, useless, broken, why the fuck did I think I could do this again... etc, etc, ad infinitum. And that was after a shoot that had produced some of the most gorgeous glamour work I've ever done, and for no particular reason other than I picked the wrong wardrobe for a casual, lifestyle shoot and it didn't flatter my figure. It can be a slippery slope. I'd definitely recommend therapy to help you feel better and cope with your illness better for life, and keep in sight that while the added boost modeling gives you is nice, it's not a permanent solution to an ongoing problem. Apr 30 13 06:32 am Link |
