Chris Rifkin wrote:
I swear the way this site is one mega malfunction really makes me want to give up and end it
(Yes this is kinda a joke,and yes this site has an uncanny way of screwing up when I'm desperately trying to set up a last second shoot and have to go through preliminary PMs,check ports,weed out the ones I don't want...)

Hi Chris! I'm sorry you are getting frustrated. I think there's been a lot of that lately and I don't have a clue what can be done about it. I'm still trying to get where I can walk unaided so I haven't had the pleasure of a shoot in a long time. I certainly hope that when I can the process of finding just the right model works properly. Let me know if I can help! Take care my friend!

Tim

Phane wrote:
Just tried to post here I go again
Its been awhile since ave been on here I suffer from depression this week has been stressful and ave been in and out of anxiety moving out and moving in twice and taking a huge hit to my self esteem these past few days I feel worthless like another wannabee


am not thinking healthy thoughts

Hi Phane! I'm sorry you are dealing with the depression. There was a period when I stayed offline recently as I was so deep in my depression I couldn't operate the computer.

Now that I am getting proper medical help for my PTSD and depression I've learned that self-esteem lies like a dog. Self-esteem finds what makes you feel bad about yourself and ramps it up times a thousand. You are a beautiful talented person of value. Start with that attitude about yourself and forget any lies your mind makes up about you. You know that you can message me if you wanna talk. I think life can be harder for us creative types. Sometimes talking it out can help. There are people here who care Phane!

Tim

Chris Rifkin wrote:
meh..sucks when the best part of the weekend you look foward to is going to sleep

Hi Chris, I know you deal with a lot of depression. You know my whole story so I feel like we both know what the other is dealing with sometimes. My therapist has been doing something with me for the past few weeks that has been really helpful. Maybe you will get some benefit from it as well. It does require a little thousand and a pad and pen.

When I wake up in the depression hole I write down what I am feeling and I try to find a trigger that may have put me there. Since I have the disease of depression I don't need a trigger but its good to look just in case. Then I think about one little thing I can physically do that would be pleasurable to me. It might be to take a shower or get ice cream or to make a new friend. All of that is easy if you want it to happen. Let me know if I can help Chris. Feel free to PM me if you wanna talk. I might be away from the computer for a while but I always check back in. Please take care of yourself my friend! You have people here who care about you!

Tim

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Hi Everyone. I seem to have had an event occur during a period when I was having what I call a "PTSD" moment. To explain the best I can. Due to some emotional triggers, and me not having $20 dollars to my name to buy some medicine, My Post Traumatic Stress Disorder didn't get the normal suppression it gets. So, I went off in a safe but emotionally violent manner. This all occurred without me having any memory of it. It's called a dissociative state where I have no knowledge of what I am doing. I don't even know if I am still in the "D" State. If I rip someone to shreads online for something that offends me then most likely I am in a sense "out of my mind"

In the case of the S&V thread I knew it was a safe place and I know I wrote some stuff there. I'm afraid to read it.  From the Private messages I have It appears I became hyper honest.

Anyway. I am safe. Don't worry about me trying to hurt anyone or myself. If I can ever get the money to get my meds I will be totally safe. But that ain't gonna happen unless bucks fall out of the sky and into my lap.

If I scared anyone I'm sorry. Now you know what my life is like and I hope you see why I try to be there for others in their pain. Love to you all. Really, I love you all! I hate injustice when people attack and laugh at others because they are different. I'm very different. So I tend to be protective when I can.

In a way you illustrated to many what I go through when my lonliness is triggered by something and the absolute pain I feel for not feeling love or experiencing this feeling since my first girlfriend passed away,and the utter helplessness I feel knowing that there is no one even close to my radar that could fufill this,and the absolute hurt that I want to experience this now,the hurt when I see fb status' of people doing activities I missed out on in my younger years that I will never in all likelyhood experience ...
You see little hints of it in here....but the pain is horrific,and it seems there is no solution..

Don't be ashamed of showing what you did in here because you in all likelyhood showed what many experience that is never shown,I know I felt it(and many here know I have not been doing well lately)

Chris Rifkin wrote:

In a way you illustrated to many what I go through when my lonliness is triggered by something and the absolute pain I feel for not feeling love or experiencing this feeling since my first girlfriend passed away,and the utter helplessness I feel knowing that there is no one even close to my radar that could fufill this,and the absolute hurt that I want to experience this now,the hurt when I see fb status' of people doing activities I missed out on in my younger years that I will never in all likelyhood experience ...
You see little hints of it in here....but the pain is horrific,and it seems there is no solution..

Don't be ashamed of showing what you did in here because you in all likelyhood showed what many experience that is never shown,I know I felt it(and many here know I have not been doing well lately)

This is the issue you need to work on to change everything.

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Sorry to have been away y'all. I've been in the hospital and just got out a few minutes ago. I hope everyone is doing well. I'm much better!

Hi Tim,

Glad to hear you're doing better.

Tim Little Photography wrote:
Once again many of us are facing another day of dangerous heat. Do what you need to protect yourself and others. Remember, the effects of prolonged heat exposure add up.

"Symptoms of heat exhaustion include profuse sweating, weakness, nausea, vomiting, headache, lightheadedness, and muscle cramps.
Heat exhaustion can progress to heat stroke when the body's temperature regulation fails. The affected individual becomes confused, lethargic and may have a seizure, the skin stops sweating and the body temperature may exceed 106 F (41 C ). This is a life-threatening condition and emergency medical attention is needed immediately.
Treatment for heat exhaustion includes recognizing the symptoms, stopping the activity, and moving to a cooler environment. Rehydration with water or a sports drink is the cornerstone of treatment for heat exhaustion. If nausea or vomiting prevents the affected individual from drinking enough water, intravenous fluids may be required."

My AC is broken so I'm still riding it out all of y'all in the same boat. Cool, safe places you can go include indoor shopping malls and libraries. I'm lucky, I live in a high rise with a beautiful lobby downstairs.

Stay cool everyone! I love you all.

Tim

Were you affected by that storm on the east coast?

C Nox wrote:
Bump.

Bump

Star Child wrote:

Were you affected by that storm on the east coast?

Hi Star! Not in a bad way at all. In my area we got a nice windy lightening storm and some much needed rain. It's been very dry in Delaware and the farmers needed it.

Tim Little Photography wrote:

Hi Star! Not in a bad way at all. In my area we got a nice windy lightening storm and some much needed rain. It's been very dry in Delaware and the farmers needed it.

Yayness!

My sister is here visiting for a week. There is much joy in my household right now.

Tim Little Photography wrote:
My AC is broken so I'm still riding it out all of y'all in the same boat. Cool, safe places you can go include indoor shopping malls and libraries. I'm lucky, I live in a high rise with a beautiful lobby downstairs.

Tim

My AC is broken,and because my home is going to be reposessed in a few months(the final anvil that my ex caused on me to me to have dropped on my head then what I have to do to protect myself from the extreme debt that I will have that can be collected on)I am in the same boat.I got a room here in Sarasota as I have 2 shoots this weekend,and I have slept in my truck when I have been home(kinda like I will be doing for a year or so until my credit clears up)