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For those of you that don't know, I was pregnant from January to May of this year. My son River died and I had to be induced. I didn't even think I could have children, but I always wanted one, so it was pretty devastating. And now I am pregnant again. This time it was on purpose with my loving boyfriend. But I did NOT think it would happen this soon. We gave ourselves a 4 year time limit and got pregnant the first month of trying. I'm happy, but also being dragged back through my worst nightmare in a way. The PTSD is bad. I'm high risk. I have a bicornuate (heart shaped) uterus. So I could really use positive thoughts, good vibes, and a lot of luck. I'm very much not religious, so if it's prayers you are sending, just don't tell me please. Update- As of 12-3-16 Everything seems to be fine so far. *crosses fingers* Update- 12-15-16 Heart still beating. <3 Update - 12-21-16 Everything looks good so far. Baby still loves putting it's hand over it's face.    Update- 1-6-17 Heart still beating. Feetsies still kicking. Update- It's a girl!  Update- 4-2 -17 27 weeks and still going. Update 4-17-17 29 weeks 1 day. 3 pounds 55th percentile.  Update 5-19-17 Still pregnant. Baby beating up my insides all the time. Nov 19 16 07:22 am Link I'm sending you all the positive thoughts I can and wishing you more-than-enough good luck.Warn your boyfriend that you're going to have heavy hormonal changes along with PTSD. What a combination! Nov 21 16 10:39 pm Link Toto Photo wrote: Thank you. He's been really understanding with me. We knew it was going to be hard, but it is a lot harder than I thought it would be. He's really sweet and supportive though. Nov 23 16 08:23 am Link I had an elective ultrasound today. My little rainbow was wiggling around. It was so cute. My boyfriend was crying and kissing me. It was really sweet. Heartbeat of 178 bpm. Measured at 9 weeks 5 days which is a two days ahead of the last calculation. I finally have pictures and my bf took a little video too.  I also had them record the heartbeat and put it in a little stuffed bunny. I wish I had a recording of River, so I had to make sure that I got that this time. So no matter what happens, I'll at least have video and the heartbeat. <3 Dec 03 16 06:08 pm Link I hope that you have a live and healthy baby! Dec 03 16 10:06 pm Link Jerry Nemeth wrote: Thank you. <3 Dec 04 16 08:19 am Link Positive thoughts and hopes that all goes well Dec 13 16 10:25 pm Link From someone who has experienced the pain of losing a child before birth, you are in my thoughts. As a living memorial to the baby we lost, I planted an oak tree on some property owned at the time. I no longer own the property, but the tree is thriving (I took pictures of it a few months ago). Almost one year to the day after our loss, my oldest daughter was born. That was more than twenty years ago. She's now in grad school and about to take the world by storm. I hope your future is filled with the joy of a crying baby, seemingly-endless feedings, changing poopie diapers, and quietly watching over your sleeping child, marveling at your most treasured possession on Earth. Dec 14 16 02:42 am Link Zebadiah _MI wrote: Thank you. Dec 15 16 02:05 pm Link portraiturebyBrent wrote: Aww. That is a really sweet memorial. Dec 15 16 02:06 pm Link No new pics, but I did get to peek at the baby really quickly at the OB today. Baby is still there and it's heart is still beating. Now I will feel relieved for like a day. I can't wait till it's big enough to be able to feel that it's still alive. Dec 15 16 02:09 pm Link I had an ultrasound today. Everything looks good so far. Got blood drawn for genetic testing. Wish me luck that my chances of abnormalities doesn't go up. *crosses fingers* Dec 21 16 06:30 pm Link So far so good. Got to see the baby real quick today. Heart was beating. My little rainbow was kicking around in there. 14 weeks 5 day and doing good so far. Also the genetic test came back fine. Jan 06 17 10:56 am Link Good to hear all is going well. Thanks for keeping us up to date. Take care. Jan 06 17 02:34 pm Link portraiturebyBrent wrote: So far so good. Jan 10 17 01:08 pm Link I got a baby doppler today! She's still alive! Heartbeat 151! YAAAAAAY! Jan 20 17 02:50 pm Link I'm glad that everything is going well. Jan 21 17 07:53 am Link Great news! Jan 23 17 01:02 pm Link 18 weeks and 2 days now. Everything is still looking good. I'm starting to feel little kicks. <3 Jan 31 17 07:40 pm Link Mischief Vixen wrote: Great!! Feb 01 17 02:14 am Link I hit 20 weeks today. Rauri's heart is still beating. My anatomy scan is on Wednesday. Eeeeeeee! Wish me luck!Feb 12 17 11:13 am Link The anatomy scan seemed to go well. The tech couldn't tell us too much, but she said everything looks good. She's measuring 3 days ahead and is 13 oz. I cried through most of the appointment. It's so crazy being this far along and less than a month from viability. I may actually become a mom this year. And just cause she must know that I'm talking about her, she just started kicking me again. She's been getting good at that. Feb 15 17 08:12 pm Link When are you due??? Feb 19 17 05:28 pm Link Koryn wrote: Hey Koryn. *pouncehug* Feb 20 17 07:22 am Link Congrats on all the pointers to growth and viability! Keep on keeping on! More good vibes being sent your way. Feb 21 17 01:17 pm Link Her kicks are getting stronger. They can sometimes even be felt from the outside a little. I'm 22 weeks now. I'm really starting to believe I might end up with a live baby at the end of this. <3 Just hoping she cooks long enough to stay out of NICU or only have a brief stay there. Feb 26 17 08:28 pm Link Thank you for the updates. It's good to hear things are progressing well. Mar 01 17 01:48 am Link Mischief Vixen wrote: That baby is gunna be a strong baby, and come out into the world like RAAAAAAWRRRR. Mar 01 17 08:42 am Link So happy for you! Keeping my fingers crossed that all goes- and stays- well! Mar 04 17 06:03 pm Link portraiturebyBrent wrote:
Mar 05 17 05:49 am Link Koryn wrote: Aww. Thank you. <3 I believe it. She is working on her kung fu a lot now. I yelp when she kicks me. I'll never get used to it. Mar 05 17 05:50 am Link Stephoto Photography wrote: So far so good still. Mar 05 17 05:50 am Link 23 weeks today! If she came out this week, she'd have a 25-35% chance of survival. So we're getting into the viability stage. WOOOOOOT! I'm also getting huge.  Mar 05 17 05:52 am Link I love this thread and I'm so glad that Rauri is thriving. Wishing you the best! Mar 05 17 02:52 pm Link L A F wrote: Aww. Thank you. She seems to be a fighter. <3 Mar 06 17 08:48 pm Link I hit the 24 week mark this past Sunday. We're officially in the viability stage. Even if I went into labor this week, she'd have a 50-70% chance of survival. Mar 13 17 10:48 pm Link That is great news!! You have my well wishes, and good vibes Mar 14 17 03:41 am Link Just discovered this thread. Sending positive thoughts your way. Mar 14 17 11:53 am Link Wishing you the best...maybe it sounds crazy to say this, but if there is any way for you to relax and reduce stress/anxiety, even a little bit, that could only help... Mar 15 17 06:14 pm Link roger alan wrote: I really wish there were. But life won't allow for that. On top of all my pregnancy stress, I have to organize, and pack to move this coming week. And all I can do is cry right now. I'm a mess. Mar 16 17 10:16 am Link |
