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Suicide and Violence Help Thread
Hope everyone is doing good. Personally, I can't wait for the holidays to be over. Dec 03 08 03:51 pm Link Everyone OK today? Dec 05 08 06:00 pm Link Sometimes it is sad to think how much more successful you may be dead. Nothing is impossible when you have passed. Dec 05 08 06:03 pm Link true... but thats not gonna stop me from trying. Dec 05 08 06:04 pm Link all i want, is not to feel like that anymore. Dec 05 08 11:38 pm Link Cheer up. Keep going forward. You have a lot more left to do before passing on. Let success take care of itself. Just live for the moment and keep doing your thing. Dec 06 08 04:25 am Link *bump* "OOps....sorry!" Dec 07 08 06:00 am Link Hi everyone. Hope all is good. Not so good here, it's one thing after another. I just found out my health insurance is getting cancelled (I make $14 too much in disability), so now I cant even go to the doctor or get my meds. Things dont look so good for me. Dec 07 08 03:07 pm Link Natasha240 wrote: Not bad here. I'm more concerned about you now, though. PM sent. Dec 07 08 03:45 pm Link Everyone OK? Dec 08 08 02:15 pm Link today has been a blessed day. I got good news concerning a house I'm hoping to buy. and my sweet and gentle cat came and sat in my lap for me to pet her for the first time since she came to live with me in September.  Dec 08 08 02:23 pm Link Kayelless wrote: Awesome! I'm so happy for you. Sometimes I wish my cat would NOT sit in my lap. She is always trying to type for me...sometimes with her nose. Dec 08 08 03:12 pm Link if my friends only knew how fucked up i really am....lol, no one knows. someone told me once that if i talk about it then i wont go through with anything, and its easier posting to people i dont know. im not looking for attention or sympathy, but this helps a little, like getting it off my chest, i even posted something that happened to me recently. that was the last time i did something to myself. https://www.modelmayhem.com/po.php?thre … age=1#last Dec 08 08 03:26 pm Link ForSaleByOwner wrote: I'm the same way. I don't show it so no one knows. I was brought up in my family conditioned to not speak my mind or say how I felt about things. I still tend to clam up whenever there is anything negative. Only the positive was allowed. I guess my parents needed to know how awesome they were and what a great job they were doing raising their family. Dec 08 08 03:36 pm Link Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote: i feel like everyone is trying soo hard to show how happy they are and show it off everywhere, so i try to do the same, but that just make me want to hide it even more. And all i can do is get f*cking angry and think is what is wrong with me. If you meet me today you'd think that i was the happiest guy in the world, lol, i dont want to bring anyone else down. Dec 08 08 04:01 pm Link ForSaleByOwner wrote: That's part of the problem with society today. Everyone puts on a show. I saw a news report today where they said over the past 2 years there has been an increase of about 30% in the number of people seeking help for depression, stress, anxiety disorders, etc. So it's definitely becoming a problem. Dec 08 08 05:19 pm Link Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote: It's difficult - especially with the Holidays as I don't have the entire family to enjoy it with. Dec 08 08 05:27 pm Link Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote: Don't you dare! The world would be just that much darker without you in it. But I can't say I dont feel the same way. Sometimes I wish I could just willmyself dead. Sigh. Dec 08 08 06:47 pm Link Natasha240 wrote: That's so awesome! I'm not really a cat person, but my cat makes me forget that all the time. Does he still watch TV? Dec 08 08 07:05 pm Link Hello all. Feeling down tonight, so am counting my blessings. Reading through my LiveJournal to have a look at my year. It isn't as bad as I thought it was. Hope you, too, are counting your blessings this holiday season! Dec 08 08 07:25 pm Link September Sui wrote: Dec 10 08 03:02 am Link I want to post here I need to but I can't summon up the words. All I know is I need help and I can't seem to make myself go get it. Everything is falling again. All I can think about is I should be dead right now, I should be. Last time should've done that. Dec 10 08 04:36 am Link Elisabeth West wrote: Hi Elisabeth, Dec 10 08 07:59 am Link Elisabeth West wrote: I'm with Natasha on this one. She's great to talk to. I'm here if you need someone to talk to also. Vent at, yell at, scream at...whatever you need. We don't judge here. That's why I'm so open in this thread. You'll find nothing but understanding and compassion here. Dec 10 08 06:37 pm Link This is a really good post...I almost killed myself last night Dec 10 08 06:46 pm Link EisaniSteelz wrote: I'm glad you didn't. Call a hotline if you feel that way again, OK? If you just need someone to talk to/vent at, I'm volunteering. Dec 10 08 07:51 pm Link Amazing thread. Been basicly at times paralyzed by depression since I lost the only girl I ever connected with due to someone getting liquered up and blowing a red light nearly 20 years ago.Add the fact that I basicly stopped developing socially at age 13 due to being severely picked on,I have basicly lived a lonely life,save for a few friends who can see through this.Years of shitty therapy(too many stupid things to talk about)and being broke on Long Island exasperated the problem.I basicly spend all my time alone,I drive a truck over the road.My only release is the 6 times a week I hit the gym(nobody would ever pick me out as a trucker,check out my myspace). Also adding to my misert is that I make irrational decisions with money(like buying a townhome 2 years ago with an ARM that has lost half its value and the arm adjusting this month). This Holliday will be the toughest,about to turn 40 next March,very little relationship experience and no hope of meeting someone desirable,family putting pressure on me... Dec 10 08 07:52 pm Link Meh,phone cut me off. Anyways,to continue,my family putting pressure on me to just settle with anyone. The only good thing is that I finally found a therapist who works with me over the phone,but its just this overwhelming feeling that I'm a failure(even though I released a few CDs,was signed,but even that depresses me because my social awkwardness killed the band as they alll took advantage of me)nearing age 40,and probably never knowing what it is like to be in love and probably never raising a family. Dec 10 08 07:56 pm Link I'm glad you didn't. Call a hotline if you feel that way again, OK? If you just need someone to talk to/vent at, I'm volunteering. Thank you for the offer and I will. Dec 10 08 10:07 pm Link Hi everyone I just want to reiterate that I am always available for PMs. If you need my number for an emergency lifeline, just ask ok? It may be awkward to call a stranger, but trust me. I have been in crisis and went through everyone I am supposed to call in that situation and not been able to get anyone on the phone. It's s c a r y. As was mentioned here also, there are hotlines you can call too. Even 911 if you need to. I dont know everyones personal story. I can tell you that now, when I am at my very lowest, the only thing that keeps me here is knowing what it would do to my wife. When I almost died last year, I never even thought of her as I was doing it. Afterward, when I realized how traumatized she was from the whole ordeal, it really stuck with me. It still does. So grab onto any thought you can, and realize your loss WILL matter to someone, even if you dont believe it. You are depressed and not thinking clearly at a time like this, but remember.....YOU MATTER. Even if YOU don't believe it, you matter. It is your depressed brain distorting how you are thinking. Dec 10 08 10:33 pm Link Bump How is everyone doing? Dec 11 08 03:05 pm Link Awesome idea. So many people everywhere go through this, whether they like to admit it or not. For me, I went through a lot of this when I was 14, I got sent to a hospital and when I was discharged I never thought I would be so grateful of the air I breathed. I have only had a few breakdowns since then, and I plan to keep it that way. People don't realize the little amount of pressure it takes to make someone crack, not all of us are as strong as the other when it comes to self confidence or feeling like you belong. This is a great thread. Dec 11 08 03:50 pm Link Natasha240 wrote: I'm glad to see you doing this. I know you've been taking a beating lately... and one of the things I've learned for me to help pull me out of a low is to do something nice or good for someone else. Dec 11 08 05:08 pm Link Kayelless wrote: Yes. Agreed. You all are awesome. Because you all care enough to show up here and contribute, to keep the thread going. It's important to me, anyway. Dec 11 08 07:04 pm Link Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:
Dec 12 08 04:48 am Link Another day, another battle. Hope everyone is well. Dec 12 08 11:13 am Link Bump this off of page 3 Dec 12 08 10:02 pm Link Is it bad of me to think suicidal thoughts often? Not seriously contemplating it, more of a "What if" thing, and then I quickly dismiss it... tried that once, never again. But very often, if I start daydreaming, I wonder what would happen if this disaster or that disaster hit. Like when we found out someone had brought a knife into our store and I found it, I imagined what would have happened if there was another person holding it instead of it sitting on the shelf. Or I imagine what it's like to drown, or have someone break into my house and murder me. ....I think I need more chocolate... Dec 12 08 10:09 pm Link What a great thread, hope every one is good Dec 12 08 11:54 pm Link David Friend Photograpy wrote: Me too! I'm worried! I've always been a happy-go-lucky person...I wasn't aware these feelings were so widespread. Dec 13 08 04:09 am Link |
She's a sweetie, though. 
