Faith EnFire wrote:

Just keep "talking" or typing. And you haz pretty face.

Miss Murder Photography wrote:


Oh man, fkin saved.

aww

but now really
[lollery]

Faith EnFire wrote:

aww

but now really
[lollery]

hahaha, i haven't seen serious cat in awhile

Miss Murder Photography wrote:

hahaha, i haven't seen serious cat in awhile

yeah, that's all i got right now, leaving work in a half hour and then go deal with the mess when I get home. right now, I'm just stuck in the "nobody loves me" but i know that's true. argh

Faith EnFire wrote:
I just had someone hurt me really bad and they are trying to twist it like it was my fault
and I know it's not and it's just hurting more that they think that I'm wrong and I should be fine with what they did
And it's really hard not to be crying (at work) and we are not talking quiet weeping, ugly cry all the way.
And I just feel under stress with all that i've foisted upon myself
and i'm having some dark thoughts to go with the tears and it sucks in general

your turn

I've dealt with that issue from people on this site on more than one occasion. I can't say that the experiences made me feel like crying, but I can truly sympathize. Just remember they normally do it to cover their own bad. Write it off as poor character on their behalf and recognize that is shows you as the better person.

Miss Murder Photography wrote:
Bah.  I got a package from my parents today.  They sent me some assorted random crap that they obviously just ran around the dollar store to get.
All i wanted was a copy of a picture of my old dog.
That was the only thing not in there...now i'm bawling cos i miss my little guardian Pepper so much :< It fucking hurts bad

*Hugzz you*

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:



*Hugzz you*

Thanks.  I'm still kinda upset.

Miss Murder Photography wrote:
Happy birthday to me. Meh.

*huggs*

Star Child wrote:

*huggs*

Why are you still awake turtle man? lol

Miss Murder Photography wrote:
Happy birthday to me. Meh.

hug

Miss Murder Photography wrote:
Happy birthday to me. Meh.

Happy Happy Birthday!!!!!!

Wish I could be there to celebrate it with ya. Hope it's a good one.

Miss Murder Photography wrote:
Happy birthday to me. Meh.

Happy birthday!

Faith EnFire wrote:
I just had someone hurt me really bad and they are trying to twist it like it was my fault
and I know it's not and it's just hurting more that they think that I'm wrong and I should be fine with what they did
And it's really hard not to be crying (at work) and we are not talking quiet weeping, ugly cry all the way.
And I just feel under stress with all that i've foisted upon myself
and i'm having some dark thoughts to go with the tears and it sucks in general

your turn

*hug*

Natasha240 wrote:
We had to put Thunder down tonight. I know Kevin knows who he is, but he was a dog we were fostering. It was expected, but very, very unexpected for tonight. It's bittersweet I guess. I know he is free now, and I know he knew he was FINALLY loved for the last few months of his life. I'm going to miss him, he was such a good boy.

I'm so sorry, Natasha.

Natasha240 wrote:
We had to put Thunder down tonight. I know Kevin knows who he is, but he was a dog we were fostering. It was expected, but very, very unexpected for tonight. It's bittersweet I guess. I know he is free now, and I know he knew he was FINALLY loved for the last few months of his life. I'm going to miss him, he was such a good boy.

*huggs*
Your words echo my feelings...
I never met him, but after you told me about him I loved him so much....

Natasha240 wrote:
We had to put Thunder down tonight. I know Kevin knows who he is, but he was a dog we were fostering. It was expected, but very, very unexpected for tonight. It's bittersweet I guess. I know he is free now, and I know he knew he was FINALLY loved for the last few months of his life. I'm going to miss him, he was such a good boy.

*hugs* for you, and a time-travel *tummy-rub* for Thunder.  Pets are precious.  I'm so glad you gave Thunder a good home for his final days.  God bless.

Natasha240 wrote:
We had to put Thunder down tonight. I know Kevin knows who he is, but he was a dog we were fostering. It was expected, but very, very unexpected for tonight. It's bittersweet I guess. I know he is free now, and I know he knew he was FINALLY loved for the last few months of his life. I'm going to miss him, he was such a good boy.

Poor baby :<  At least he died loved.

Natasha240 wrote:
Thank you all for the kindness. *Hugs* I feel that so many pieces of my heart have gone over the past four months. How many pieces can we lose before it tips the balance? I know I'm asking a rhetorical question, but this is what I am thinking right now.

You have a big heart.

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:

You have a big heart.

Sometimes, It's a curse.

Natasha240 wrote:

Sometimes, It's a curse.

I don't believe that. I don't think a big heart is ever a curse. There may be setbacks in life because of it, but I think in the big scheme of things in life, it's a blessing.

You, my dear, are also a blessing.

iimagein wrote:
If I got through our anniversary without us talking to each other, I have the strength to do the same today....I know it.

Happy Valentine's day everyone! Use the love that you have given, or been given by someone else, as a weapon to fight against any negative thoughts.

ArunaDiesPretty wrote:
My therapist wrote a letter explaining exactly WTF has been wrong with me over the course of my life, lol, so that I can finally get some resources and hopefully get some sort of life:

Aruna Advaney is a 39 year old Indian female, whom I have been seeing for treatment of Asperger's Syndrome.  As a result of her disability, Ms. Advaney has difficulty relating to others, formulating constructive solutions to problems, and can be easily distracted. It is hard for her to focus and concentrate, especially under a lot of stimulation.  She can become particularly overwhelmed and frustrated when traveling around town, which makes driving or navigating public transportation difficult.

It is for these reasons that I am requesting that Ms. Advaney receive transportation assistance from the Regional Transportation Authority, to help her get to and from doctors' visits, therapy sessions, job interviews and other related activities.  Since she is unable to drive because of her psychological limitation, and because navigating public transportation is difficult for her, the assistance you could provide will be important in helping her participate in the necessary activities to help her lead a productive life. 

I would appreciate your considering her for assistance with transportation. 

Respectfully yours,
Lorna

Couldn't have said it better myself.  Just thought I'd share, 'cause employers and the rest of the world don't seem to get it.

I can imagine your frustration with this issue.

Sometimes I hit a certain level of stress and I just have to shut it down, stop whatever it is I'm doing and just chill. Happens a lot when I'm filling out job applications.

ArunaDiesPretty wrote:
My therapist wrote a letter explaining exactly WTF has been wrong with me over the course of my life, lol, so that I can finally get some resources and hopefully get some sort of life:

Aruna Advaney is a 39 year old Indian female, whom I have been seeing for treatment of Asperger's Syndrome.  As a result of her disability, Ms. Advaney has difficulty relating to others, formulating constructive solutions to problems, and can be easily distracted. It is hard for her to focus and concentrate, especially under a lot of stimulation.  She can become particularly overwhelmed and frustrated when traveling around town, which makes driving or navigating public transportation difficult.

It is for these reasons that I am requesting that Ms. Advaney receive transportation assistance from the Regional Transportation Authority, to help her get to and from doctors' visits, therapy sessions, job interviews and other related activities.  Since she is unable to drive because of her psychological limitation, and because navigating public transportation is difficult for her, the assistance you could provide will be important in helping her participate in the necessary activities to help her lead a productive life. 

I would appreciate your considering her for assistance with transportation. 

Respectfully yours,
Lorna

Couldn't have said it better myself.  Just thought I'd share, 'cause employers and the rest of the world don't seem to get it.

Good news.

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:


Good news.

Thanx, but not yet.  I have an appeal hearing with Regional Transportation Authority on February 26th (because they rejected me).  I have to convince 3 board members to let me have this transportation, and if they don't then...I have to settle for jobs across the street, or look for boring work-from-home jobs, like doing medical transcriptions. 

It's impossible to pursue anything creative or exciting (like modeling) when I'm not independent, don't know anyone, and can't get to anyone.  I'm afraid to accept transportation from people I don't know. Same goes for inviting Photographers into our (my mom's) house. I'm always being told not to get in anyone's car.  It's so awkward to try to explain my weird situation to Photographers professionally, and without putting them off or offending them.

(sigh) We'll see what happens.

ArunaDiesPretty wrote:
My therapist wrote a letter explaining exactly WTF has been wrong with me over the course of my life, lol, so that I can finally get some resources and hopefully get some sort of life:

Aruna Advaney is a 39 year old Indian female, whom I have been seeing for treatment of Asperger's Syndrome.  As a result of her disability, Ms. Advaney has difficulty relating to others, formulating constructive solutions to problems, and can be easily distracted. It is hard for her to focus and concentrate, especially under a lot of stimulation.  She can become particularly overwhelmed and frustrated when traveling around town, which makes driving or navigating public transportation difficult.

It is for these reasons that I am requesting that Ms. Advaney receive transportation assistance from the Regional Transportation Authority, to help her get to and from doctors' visits, therapy sessions, job interviews and other related activities.  Since she is unable to drive because of her psychological limitation, and because navigating public transportation is difficult for her, the assistance you could provide will be important in helping her participate in the necessary activities to help her lead a productive life. 

I would appreciate your considering her for assistance with transportation. 

Respectfully yours,
Lorna

Couldn't have said it better myself.  Just thought I'd share, 'cause employers and the rest of the world don't seem to get it.

That's great your therapist is working towards helping others understand!

ArunaDiesPretty wrote:

Thanx, but not yet.  I have an appeal hearing with Regional Transportation Authority on February 26th (because they rejected me).  I have to convince 3 board members to let me have this transportation, and if they don't then...I have to settle for jobs across the street, or look for boring work-from-home jobs, like doing medical transcriptions. 

It's impossible to pursue anything creative or exciting (like modeling) when I'm not independent, don't know anyone, and can't get to anyone.  I'm afraid to accept transportation from people I don't know. Same goes for inviting Photographers into our (my mom's) house. I'm always being told not to get in anyone's car.  It's so awkward to try to explain my weird situation to Photographers professionally, and without putting them off or offending them.

(sigh) We'll see what happens.

You have a tough road to go. That can be a test of anyone's patience.

ArunaDiesPretty wrote:

Thanx, but not yet.  I have an appeal hearing with Regional Transportation Authority on February 26th (because they rejected me).  I have to convince 3 board members to let me have this transportation, and if they don't then...I have to settle for jobs across the street, or look for boring work-from-home jobs, like doing medical transcriptions. 

It's impossible to pursue anything creative or exciting (like modeling) when I'm not independent, don't know anyone, and can't get to anyone.  I'm afraid to accept transportation from people I don't know. Same goes for inviting Photographers into our (my mom's) house. I'm always being told not to get in anyone's car.  It's so awkward to try to explain my weird situation to Photographers professionally, and without putting them off or offending them.

(sigh) We'll see what happens.

Didn't offend me at all and wouldn't have. I'd love to shoot with you which is why I asked in the other thread if you travel. I can't travel far right now myself because I have dogs and don't feel right putting them in a kennel.

I hope it works out for you.

Star Child wrote:

You have a tough road to go. That can be a test of anyone's patience.

Truth. And how are you doing?

Photons 2 Pixels Images wrote:

Truth. And how are you doing?

Doin' okay. I've been fighting off lows all week.
How about yourself?